February 2012
57 posts
2 tags
Now I’m nervous and want to stay longer!!!!
2 tags
2 tags
Gave PhD the out. If he’s too busy at school he doesn’t have to meet me at the airport. Accent will come out for sure.
He is. There was a wedding but he’s not going because he’s seeing me.
Nice. I would’ve accepted the school excuse or even a closer friend or family’s event.
7 tags
PhD related news
You got me thinking anonymous asker.
I will be showing him all the foods I being back. Crumpets especially. Commonwealth thing I believe.
Along with all the sweets I test and watch my students eat to see their reactions. Licorice is the best. All but a small percent hate that^^
And he wants me to cook him lasagna after I sent him a photo of my meal.
1 tag
Apologies.
Tumblr on my phone won’t let me scroll up my ask “answer dialogue box”.
Can’t edit my typos.
Which I couldn’t see initially anyway because it wouldn’t scroll down.
By business I meant “to be busy”. Urgh
Anonymous asked: are you and phD still together? I know you're dealing with lots of stuff with your mom but you havent mentioned him in a while. when are you going back to Korea?
Turned it on.
Voicemail and text.
Text said she agreed to my plans in order to respect me and help my feelings toward her in the future.
She did manage to slip in manipulation and false reasoning (read: the girl in “hes not that into you” using a pen to get contact)
Pfft. Trust me - the “just half an hour I promise” isn’t goin to matter. You have 5 hours on Wednesday.
Urgh…. Finally picked up mums phone calls. Same stuff. Wants to meet tuesday night. I told her the same stuff.
Also managed to move her to 1pm wednesday without her realizing. She just pulled the sob story. That shell just come to the airport gate then (sweet!!!) as some sort of manipulation.
Then she called back saying the highway towards our home is jammed. But the highway towards...
Too much white chocolate and a big piece of lasagna.
I want to vomit
Turn on phone.
Check voicemails. One from mom- seeming okay but not obviously. Asking about products.
Messages - one from mom telling me to have a good day. Another from sad giving me the heads up that from what he just sent to her lawyer- that she will know we gave him the heads up (not sure if he means the knife night or other nights as well)
Turn my phone off as soon as a “I’m good. Relaxing...
Quick update
Day out with my aunt and her best friend. Lunch on the water. Movie then coffee
Dinner and wine. Lots of good chatting.
Mum phoned. We ignored it at first while we figured out the battle plan. She wants to come up here Tuesday night before I leave. Nope.
At first I got tricked into thinking she was sensible again and maybe *this* time would be different. But we know better. We told her...
At my aunts. 2 hours north of the city.
My brother is at his girlfriends. He has a rental accom lined up.
We couldn’t stay there anymore. It’s tough love time.
So My dad will drive up here to meet me and say goodbye on Tuesday. My brother and I will have lunch on Wednesday and my mom gets to meet me for an hour on Wednesday. At the airport - before my flight.
My aunt and I...
So I was just freaked out over nothing but the horrible feeling of post-nightmare and windy rainy night time.
My brother took the pillows.
The sounds. Just in my dreams
Feel a bit stupid.
Maybe the yelling was her actually close to the house.
Because the sofa bed now has 3 pillows and a sheet missing.
But she didn’t take her childhood teddy bear that was there.
I also heard for a second time the smoke alarm test beeping. I don’t know if that’s a nightmare or a real sound.
Had my uncle check the house for me. Make sure she’s not here.
Either...
Sleeping with one ear open and feet against the door
Probably just a dream I know but I just heard a horribly desperate call of my name by my mom
Not like she was here But like her spirit type thing. Probably just a dream. But if something happened. I reckon it happened 10 minutes ago
Sounds stupid. Im not too sure of I believe this type of thing can happen. But I’m freaking myself out...
Yeah. I’m barricaded in my brothers room.
My mother came up to the room earlier. After a few suicidal storm outs to the car. This time with two serious knives.
“this will cut a penis off, yeah?”
Then something about a murder suicide.
So as I called dad to warn him to leave or not go home, my brother called emergency services.
Soon after knocks on the door. Checked...
Took a classic photo today that epitomizes how you would explain Mum.
Lying on a piece of old carpet in the middle of our backyard…in the mud. In the rain.
Soaking.
Lost My Mind in Seoul...: Trefoils > Every Other... →
lostmymindinseoul:
My Girl Scout Cookies came in! I’m sending nine boxes to my friend Min in Korea and three to my former student HyeMin. We ordered one box of each kind for my family and my dad and I opened them all up and had a cookie tasting tea party after dinner. We have decided that Trefoils are the best while…
I’ve seen this a few times. The new foreign market in Itaewon...
Turns out that my uncle didn’t know about how mom was with us when we were young.
I lived in the knowledge that if I didn’t do things exactly to perfection and NOW that I would cause a divorce or huge huge argument
Whereas my brother had a frequently recurring nightmare.
I wouldve traded to protect him. Although my problems were bad too. But at least I had sleep as an escape....
Camping outside dads house monitoring mums position. Waiting for cops. They never came.
My uncle came. We talked mom to go back home. To take her medication for sleep. She doesn’t take daily meds because she refuses to.
Chat to my uncle about everything and anything.
Now in bed.
Tomorrow carpet layers. My uncle will come down to discuss options and etc with my mom when...
Although my mother is all talk. She rarely does anything dangerous.
She threatens harm etc as a way to control and manipulate you
My afternoon?
Driving at a snails pace up the street to pick up my mother. Who had decided she would walk to my dads house the next suburb over.
Why so slow?
Because I thought there is a real possibility my mum will jump in front of the car to hurt herself
How can I even begin to make my future husband understand my life?
What a day!
Washing linen, cleaning kitchen, cleaning two bathrooms that have 10 years worth of duplicated/multiplicated products and dirt, shopping for final Korea things, eye test, wash more clothes and sheets, tidy two cupboards of linen and cleaning products , test pack for my suitcase weight for flight back to korea, buy boxes, organize boxes for post office, pick up repaired shoes, pick up repaired...
Packed up two boxes ready to send back to Korea…mainly of lollies and clothing (non-essential stuff along with essential stuff like bras and leggings that actually fit me etc). And a lot of candy unique to my country. I love watching the students try it for the first time. They are so scared and hesistant, because they never really know if it’s going to be good (like the candy Bananas)...
Anonymous asked: I feel people don't tell you this enough: You are a beautiful, strong and kind woman. Don't think, just live. Why not be a little selfish for once? Everyone else is.
Meeting First on Monday.
This should be interesting. We were 17 and almost 19 (I was older) when we started going out.
He was there for my 21st and that was it a bit later.
We had problems. We should’ve broken up after 6 months. But I didn’t know better then.
So we grew a lot together. And afterwards.
He’s an upstanding guy- although a bit manipulative and...
Then I turn around
And message First (my first almost two years boyfriend) about meeting.
We had a pretty bad break up. I didn’t handle it well. Ran my mouth. Cried. Didn’t accept it.
But the way he handled me is a credit to him.
We kept in touch (we studied the same degree a year apart and because I did a double I slowed the degree we both did). His mother was in one of my information...
To the other guy
Who like so many guys in my life (I blame the fact I’m one of the boys and always work and play in a crowd of boys with maybe one other female) liked me, but didn’t ever have the balls to either do subtle hints of flirtation or similar, nor the balls to tell me.
This one told me. The day before my flight to Korea. On the phone. After 2 hours of strange pointless conversation that I...
So annoyed
With people from my past thinking they need to “sort out the past” or asking me “if they have done anything wrong/to make me mad”
To the guy who was nice but really made my skin crawl and was just no way attractive to me in anyway- I ignored your lame poetry you sent me. The first time you sent it on the 4th of some month early last year. And again when you sent it (copy...
Just over one more week until I’m back in Seoul. I have so many errands and household tasks I want to finish for my mom before I go.
Today and tomorrow will be almost the last time with my dad.
Then right back into it with half a day to recover before teaching. Although I predict it will be a non event on thursday and Friday. Maybe just some games and fun.
Stressing about university...
PhD is is mental busy. Also frustrated about being a student for so long and getting so close but still a little bit too far from the end. He wants money and the next part of his life
He is still unsure if he is going to daejon for a year. I’m still secretly hoping that will fall through.
Today
6am take mom to the train
6.45 meet plasterers.
7.30 let painter in
11am take rubbish to dump, get all of my damaged or need alterating dresses to the sewers(about 7), go to shoe guy to repair glitter heels, get key cut, go to computer store to give them mom’s computer for fixing, buy hard drive and PowerPoint clicker (left mine in Korea and need one for a school presentation I’m...
Valentines
Just cut a heart out of paper and did a photobooth photo shoot in the garden.
Sent it to PhD and sometime he will get the chocolates.
Always get reminded
Of how I’ve done the typical thing of flipping and finding a new boyfriend who solves the major problem of the last.
PhD has focus and plans. He’s kept himself on track studying etc.
Today I realized this again because he’s off to Incheon to give a seminar on his research. Definitely liking that idea
…and I still can’t get the Facebook photo of Tomato sitting...
Anonymous asked: i love PhD
Took photos of leaks in the new patio while there was heavy rain for mom.
The next photos I save in my album are towel clad ones of PhD (he just sent them because we haven’t seen each other In a while).
Quickly realized that I need to email the photos to mom. She’s not touching the phone and flicking one too far to that!!!
(in return he got a photo of me with wet hair, no...
hotyellowfellows replied to your post:
I’m really sorry to hear about this. For what it’s worth. As someone who’s lost a parent… you should appreciate what time you have left with with your mom and take advantage of it. Korea is always going to be here in the future.
I think this is what I will have to accept. But not now. And it’s so hard because my mom is so hard to live with and to...
My mother
Turns out the growths (she had benign ones a year ago) are malignant this time.
Doctors say 5-10 years. 5 seems to be it. 10 is out of the ballpark.
She is having radiotherapy but doesn’t wish to have chemo. She also wants to be woken up from the operation if they discover the cutting and removal will leave her with a colostomy bag or unable to eat as normal.
So I’m kinda...
Phone call
PhD: I missing you every day, every minute
GIS: 믿지않아요…..impossible !!
PhD: okay….every hour.
GIS: okay. Good.
(also every time I speak Korean he mocks me. Mainly because I speak in the up and down tone of English sentences)
Missed PhD a lot today. It’s nice to feel this different feeling for him. Kinda makes me realize I do like him.
Decided to call him. Since its through skype it’d come up as a strange or blocked number. No answer the first time. Second time someone else picks up.
I stuff up and put his family name after his first name and just add 있어요? Lots of Korean in response. No one word that...
That hurt
260 dollars on things like stocking, lollies, moisturizer, favorite toothpaste.
But most of my shopping to bring back is done.
Buy more leggings, my hair treatment stuff, food for Accent etc, and some hometown rum. And pay for a Brazilian wax.
Otherwise I’ll be right to lay low. Sleep in, watch tv, stitch and study.
Already will have to post a lot!!
In the latest family news
Saw my dad tonight. That was nice.
Before I walked in I double checked with my best friend whether it was unreasonable of me to not want to meet my father’s girlfriend or whatever they call themselves (since she is still technically with her partner)
She said it wasn’t.
I don’t want to meet her. I don’t think it’s appropriate or just simply necessary. Not...
Hangul magnets.
A popular question for me.
You can get then online. Or take the easy route. Head to a Homeplus and go to the kids section. There should be board games etc and also educational type things.
There are usually tubs (the size of a small head? And with yellow lids) of magnets. In English or Korean.
